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Monday, September 18, 2006
Lessins. In glassrooms. Prisons. Some of the terms my kids use to refer to school. Ha ha. One went as far as to suggest that whether you are in express or normal academic or normal technical is a matter of which prison is worse. Woah. Dear kids..you are so interesting, you make my teaching experience so fun.
From perpetually sleeping queens to rude swaggering bengs to kids who gang up against me, I still have this much to say..Thank you to all of you for making my time with you fruitful. let's try the 6 steps of the emotional map..here goes..
Dear students, I feel angry when you sleep in my class and show no respect by doing Maths in my class. Or doing Art, or anything except my subject.
I feel angry when you use expletives in class and show me all kinds of attitudes. I feel hurt when you put my notes aside, or let them drop to the floor to be crushed or stepped on.
To be discarded. I feel fearful that I have not done enough as your teacher, that whatever I do is not enough to motivate you, to help you improve in my subject.
I feel pangs of regrets when I see the fail grades as I enter them into the system. I feel so sad to enter columns of fail marks.
Can't you SEE? I started off idealistic..I started off with a dream to want to see improvement, despite the fact that some of you are repeat students.
It does not matter and it does not mean you are stupid. I've never thought of you all as STUPID or slow. I constantly ask myself if there is anything more that I can do to help.
I really hope to work out something with all of you. Let us work hard to clear this year together so we can all go to the next level, shall we? The greatest joy a teacher can ever have is to see the improvement in studies n attitude of the students. That is my aim, my goal. And I am not quitting. Till i see my dream come to pass. Precious lessons learnt from you all. I the student, you the teacher.
enlightened apvunsoul- 6:07 AM |
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Monday, September 04, 2006
Having worked in the teaching profession for less than 3 months, I have concluded that teaching is not for the faint hearted. I believe that this is not the calling for which I was made for. Which is why I am feeling so lost, so displaced. Don't really see where I am heading for and I don't like what I am doing. Not that I hate teaching. I like it but not the admin that comes with it. I am feeling so troubled becos I am placed in this and that which I really have no interest in.
Maybe it is just the environment I am placed in. A change would do me good? I do not know. At the moment, I am being able to blog more as it is the hols and I can take a short breather away from the teaching.
Dear Lord..Won't You show me what it is I can really do with my life? I just don't know.
enlightened apvunsoul- 8:04 AM |
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
I have been setting papers for the end of year. And boy are my questions going to be easy. It really is not easy trying to set a paper that will cater to three classes of very VARIED abilities. I have one super motivated bunch, one super talkative bunch and lastly one pai kia boys town type of monkeys. So you see, the paper will obviousy be duckfeet for the first two classes but not the last. Which is why i worry.
Not that I am condemning all the kiddos in the pai kia league, but there are some really nasty ones that really need to be packed off to Siberia. To be left there to hibernate and rot. Ha ha. Ooops, the psychotic tendencies of a disgruntled cher are surfacing. Just wanna add one point on the teachers day celebrations in school.
I received loads of sweeties from the lower sec, and nil from the upper sec. Ha ha, can you see? I have no rapport whatsoever with the upper sec. It is a mutual understanding. of hatred. Anyway..I was really touched by this sweet letter one of my kids wrote to me. It goes like this:
" Dear Ms Nah,
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!Hope you will like my present to you. I had a hard time finding it so I hope you like it! Sorry that ____ is such a playful and noisy class but I hope you will still continue to teach us and stay as our co-form. ok? =) you are actually a good, nice, caring and obviously pretty( i disgree here) teacher. so i hope you won't leave_______. hope u have a wonderful day!!
My heart melted! And it still melts. So sweet!!! It helps us teachers carry on in life you know, if students just learn to show some respect, and some appreciation for the things we do for our kids. OF course, the upper sec is a diff ball game altogether. Aww, I am so touched. *teary jan*
enlightened apvunsoul- 6:22 AM |
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